For seventeen-year-old Mia, surrounded by a wonderful family, friends and a gorgeous boyfriend decisions might seem tough, but they’re all about a future full of music and love, a future that’s brimming with hope.
But life can change in an instant.
A cold February morning . . . a snowy road . . . and suddenly all of Mia’s choices are gone. Except one.
As alone as she’ll ever be, Mia must make the most difficult choice of all.
Haunting, heartrending and ultimately life-affirming, If I Stay will make you appreciate all that you have, all that you’ve lost – and all that might be.
If I Stay… MORE LIKE CAN YOU LEAVE. If I Stay wasn’t as amazing as I was hoping, at all. This is the story of Mia a 17 year old girl that has had a traumatic accident and basically gets to reflect on her life and future and decide what will be best for her.
While Mia struggles with her life we see flash backs of her relationship with Adam and her Parents, we see her struggle with leaving for college and how she learnt to play the cello and her stage fright.
The next part contains spoilers for the first few chapters if you don’t want to be spoiled for them than do not read on please
Okay so Mia dies within the first few pages and we see her see her parents splattered on the asphalt of the road and I wasn’t expecting this so soon but I went into the story blind so there’s that. I didn’t realise this book would be told by Mia being in a weird ghost form.
I loved reading about Mia and her family I thought her Mum and Dad were such great characters as well as her Nan and Pop, they are the main reason I didn’t dnf this book after the awkward first few chapters.
I didn’t like Adam and Mia’s relationship, Mia was constantly doubting herself and him which annoyed me because why can’t there be a solid trust, I get that she’s self-conscious but I would have been annoyed if I was Adam and my GF constantly doubted my commitment without any reason to, he was literally sweet and supportive she was just over insecure for no real reason or at least no reason that was shown. Like she didn’t have a previous bad relationship she just had zero confidence in him.
Another thing I didn’t like was the sex scene, no, I’m not a prude give me all the detailed smut there is but give me a weird ass sex scene where they describe each other as instruments and he cradles her like a guitar and plucks at her like a Spanish guitar? Also she rubs her bow across him and all I could think of is major friction rash and that’s not sensual*vomits*
Another thing I hated was Mia’s bestie uses the word Retarded casually and that word will never sit well with me it wasn’t pulled up and it didn’t need to be written in unless you were just wanting me to dislike her automatically, she’s not 13 she’s 17-18 and should know better than to throw around harmful words for no reason.
Mia’s voice wasn’t my fave, I did like her reflections on her family and friends and what they would want her to do but asides from family relationships I just wasn’t into it.
A lot of people love this book so I was expecting a lot more from it, the whole thing just fell flat and awkward for me and the message was pure cheese. We didn’t even get to see the aftermath of Mia’s decision and I am not reading the second book to find out more.