Alternative name for this post:
I will not be as socially anxious and stop myself from doing relatively easy things that my lizard brain seems to think are immensely scary and to go read a book at home instead.
An off topic, while kind of being on topic post.
This month I read Me Before You By Jojo Moyes (check out my review here if you like)
This book made me take stock of my life and want to achieve more things and have more adventurous adventures, BUT there is a problem… I have trouble actually doing things.
When I started this blog I told no one in my real life because I was afraid of what they would say, when I started running I’d do it alone at 6am so no one would know, EVEN though it is an awesome thing to start doing I wanted the option to quit without anyone knowing I was a quitter. I don’t start things for fear of failing them when really isn’t that the ultimate weird things to do I mean if you never start don’t you fail by default?
I realise this is a stupid way to do things so this Month I am not going to be afraid. I’m planning on doing some things that I have been to scared/self conscious to do and post a weekly update so I will not quit.
Some of the things I’m afraid to do that I am going to start doing.
1. Joining a kickboxing class.
I am extremely un coordinated but I have always wanted to try kickboxing and the gym near me has just started a class so I am going to go and do it. I am extremely anxious to do this by myself but I am going to go for it and do it anyway even if just typing this I am already coming up with excuses not to.
2.Explore all my cities bookstores and touristy attractions.
Melbourne city has a lot of amazing bookstores that I don’t go to because again I’m a homebody BUT I am planning on finding some great new bookstores and hopefully some amazing humans in the process. I want to photograph my adventures and turn them into blog posts, if there is anything in Melbourne, Australia that you’ve always wanted to do/see let me know and I will go and
hopefully do it!
3. Do something that matters.
I’m leaving this open, I want to do something that matters, something that helps people or the environment or my friends or family, maybe even all of the above. I don’t know exactly what yet but I do know that I want to do something that matters. Suggestions are more then welcome.
4. Talk to real people more.
Now I’m not saying you guys aren’t real, although if you are a bunch of robots reading my posts and leaving lovely comments thank you for not being evil and going all terminator on me.
I love talking to everyone one of you guys on here and I love talking to all my followers on Instagram BUT I struggle at it in the real world. I want to engage more in real life even if it is scary as hell and makes me anxious.
6. Start a writing course.
Books are my love, my passion and I want to be a writer, I want to touch people the way Authors have touched me and the first way I am going to start is by enrolling in a course.
7. Be happy.
Finally the main thing I will be doing this month is being Happy. I stop myself from achieving great things or even small things because I’m afraid and I will work on being happier and less afraid in all aspects of my life.
The first step of my month of not being afraid was actually posting this. I nearly didn’t, but I took a deep breath pressed publish and just did it. I want to live my life and love my life and being afraid isn’t going to get me there.
I will be documenting my adventures on snap chat and Instagram and maybe some blog posts.
I know to a lot of you all these things may be small and very easy to do but for me they will make a big difference and hopefully help me be more socially active and meet some new and awesome people.
Do any of you guys stop yourself from doing the things you want to do because of fear?
If anyone wants to join in with me this month and conquer some of your own fears that are stopping you from living your life the way you want to please feel free to join me.
Put yourself out there and just go for it. Grab life with both hands and live it. Inspire people, make something and show it off un afraid of criticism, join a class that makes you uncomfortable, write a blog post that scares you to publish. Put yourself first and become your biggest cheerleader and the most important thing to do is be happy.